by pinky lui
you are deciding left or right
a dilemma in the morning traffic
you blink the indicator to the right and head
for the fast lane
and you almost miss the traffic light ahead
at the corner of your eyes the amber light is blinking and urging
and chased by the green light
then you think this left looks better
or maybe again this right
but what if the road was blocked anyway?
you are deciding black
or white, or even grey would do
of all the colors to choose from
the rainbow says “screw you” and runs away
you are standing between the mirror and the closet door half opened
one tells and one sells
but what if they both lied?
you are deciding yes or
no for the seven-year-old dog in the cage
its soulful eyes seem to condemn you for picking a pup of five months
it wails with such intensity you thought for one second that it tells
then you with the trembling pup in your arms
dozing to a dream of home
remember you pick one life over another
but you think you still save one and you did a good deed
but what if you could not sleep at night?
you are deciding coffee
or chocolate because tea was never your thing
you want coffee because it is so bitter without the milk
it numbs all else and you feel only that bitterness
but chocolate can soften all decadence
then you see the teabags are on sale and maybe they would settle
but what if the tea was not strong enough?
you are deciding him or
her or both or you or all
greedy as you are and the world is selfish
where choices have to be made one at a time
you make a list of pros and cons and make a chart of why and why not
then you remember they are deciding too
you go ahead with whoever decides first
but what if you are deciding none?
then I am a victim of free will
should you then be proud of your decisiveness and I clap for you
but what if you were wrong?
i know you are deciding still
but it was already settled.